It's my desert-iversary. By Zach Hively This week marks the anniversary of my return to New Mexico, where I was born and where I grew as tall as I’d ever get—where I didn’t appreciate my surroundings until I left and came back and left again and came back again—where I needed to return to settle into myself. It’s the same week when I moved into the house I’d been fixing up for a summer. I needed New Mexico again, but I didn’t want the city this time. I wanted mountains with nearly nothing between me and them but crows and smoke from someone’s brush burn. I wanted space to think and breathe and maybe sometimes disappear, for a while. I found a space to write more poetry than I ever had. These poems are some of the ones that came out in this headspace and heartset. They are from a suite called “Five Times Coming Home." Other People They worry about me being here as clear as snake tracks in the sand. As if I will tire of reading worn stones and could ever translate the strata of stories in the walls sheered by guerilla floods and illuminated by the roots of cedars, patient monks. As if I could ever smell over the next ridge to my satisfaction and finish tallying the stars on my walls like the count of my days. As if I need more than myself and the indifferent welcome of this, my companion land. Untaming feral mind, feral heart rocks dirt trees fire and sky, moon and sun the flow and ebb turning toward, drawing away where is the wild man the shapeshifter with smoke and stories has he forgotten himself here no mistakes more serious than joy reacquainted with feet and hands find the sky again grow thick with quiet continue choosing turning toward to feel it all all ways of being are not exclusive lay them bare again and always Querencia
My way is not the only way. I must learn from other ways to test and hone my ways, to make way for those other ways any way I can. There is no right way to love this place or let it love me back, to test and hone me and stun me with an evening flower or a print in the snow, to make way for others as others made way for me.
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